The pain of it all, is that nothing matters now. It was all planned out to be this way. I should have foreseen it. It lead to my revival in the Lord. Indirectly. And also led to my widening of social circles. And it led to where I am now. I was almost stopped by Cheri, but undeterred, I moved on with it. I learnt what was sacrifice. I learnt what was pain. And I learnt how to care. My weakness was evident. All my emotions were put into the pot, creating a wonderful melting pot of joy and love. The pot would go dry one day. And it finally did. Empty as it is now, it will not be filled ever again. Now I live to bring Him praise. There is noone else for me. None but Jesus. Crucified to set me free. Now I live to bring him praise. Thou there is grief, there will be compassion. His love ensures that we are not consumed. You shall be called: Almighty God. I really fall upon you oh Lord. Your name is higher. HIGHER. The dribbles down the cheeks are nothing. Tho they mean so much to me, its nothing compared to your love for me. And you will never forsake me. I will never forsake you either. I recommit myself to you oh Lord. You name is HIGHER. The dribbles will not stop. I had put in all I could. And it ended abruptly like this. I can only find comfort in the Lord. Was it my fault. Should I have listened to the warning from the start? If I did, all this would not have happened. Yet it was meant to be. The memories will always be in my heart. The pain cannot be helped. I wil suffer in silence. Forever. The harsh reality is unveiled. And the truth is brough upon the people like showers of molten silver. That's about it. I deleted 4 of my blogs.

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